SHE WOKE UP

She Woke Up

It was 8:10 when she woke up. Reluctantly remembered what day it was. Two more days to Sunday was that entire she can produce. Slowly she came out of bed -yet in sleep. Stretched her hand and start looking for the things she will need. She managed to find her toothbrush and while looking for toothpaste she remembered that she almost used all her energy to squeeze the paste out of the tube last morning. She made a mental note last morning regarding this issue. The tube was not in a position to produce even a single drop of paste.

But hope is a strong emotion. She continued searching for that near dead tube. Searching a thing of requirement is a seriously mysterious affair. One always tends to get a thing which was urgently required some day before .But getting the object of immediate attention requires a huge amount of luck. She found herself lucky today .The tube was watching her from the dictionary. She used it as bookmark. While pulling out the toothpaste she opened the page which the tube was marking. The word was “Blaspheme" the meaning of which was described as “talking impious of the god”

She suddenly found herself in the extended confusion which surrounded her last night when she slept. She was reading an article which described "existence of god" as the element of illusion (or faith) which keeps people's ego intact against negative emotions like anger, hatred humiliation etc.

She found herself quite unsure of the status of god. During her B’tech course she was once told that while analyzing an issue one should keep emotions and biasing separate from facts. So she tried to get the pros & cons of the existence of god and make points out of it. She started making list as she always did while making her seminars reports etc

Benefits of having god

--people get hope

--people can make wishes

--it sooths one's agitation and restlessness

--it gives some people something to do (like her mom)

--it gives a platform where we can blame the things happening which we cannot understand (may be before the law of gravity the god was responsible for that downfall of apple)

--it creates harmony in people...

This thought raged her and she feel clustered .Her thoughts were cloudy and too many at a time. One more Btech approach.. Solve clouds by stacking them. She could never digest why god cannot create harmony among people and sometime he himself was responsible for that disorder. She once more started making list..

--when religion is meant to unite people then why it creates segregation

--why devoting a part & income of your life is necessary to make god happy

--Most of the terrorism is based on either religion or economics

--why there are so many gods to be worshiped

The more problems she thought was redundant in nature that is more or less the above mentioned points in some other forms. Once when she was in her 12th class she once gave a theory .Which she never mentioned to anyone but yet she was quite sure of its relevance and success. God must be a species who is developed more in terms of brain and power. She did watched many of those mythological TV serials. All sort of gods played politics dirtier then we human beings do. They also do all those thing which we are not supposed to get at place built by them called as " SWARGA ".Happenings of swarga itself is contradictory ..

One fellow lives his life with discipline and dedication while restricting himself from doing forbidden things like wine, dance luxury etc...if he successfully complete his life in this way then he will go to " SWARAGA"( heaven) which will provide him the rewards like "SURA" ( divine wine ) ..The prettiest of the girls known as "APSARAS" will dance there for him. So the thing which is one deprived of through out his life is rewarded in the same form after death. Life itself is quite mysterious affair .But she put one simple theorem "the driving force theorem ".

all bodies are like physical system which need some energy to thrive. There is one controlling energy which keeps system intact. Whenever a disruption is observed in that physical system the driving energy tries to fight back. (recall immune system and Lee Chatlier’s law of equilibrium ) .If the disturbance is more then the energy can fight back the energy leaves the body and person is now known as dead. Up to this stage our medical systems have found ways which helps this energy in fighting back but restoration of that energy once it leaves body is not yet possible. These super species called as god may know in better way of controlling that energy. May be that is the reason why we worship them.

Later with growing stage she considered this theorem of her as childish one .But she can never find a flaw in her theorem...

Harmony problem again shot back .She then tried to think of miracles which establishes god as a respectable identity in society.

Three days before while she was driving her scooty in the road an autorikshaw hit her. She fell on road and a matador passed by with only inches of gap between them. Her head was revolving and she was breathing heavily while thanking god for saving her life.

Accidents like this manage us to think of supreme authority which controls our life. But suddenly she a thought crossed her mind. What if god himself plans all those tragedies to reestablish him among us? (That “better species and controlling that life energy better then us thing” crawled slowly and stayed somewhere inside her)

In fact our GEETA says “we all are only the tools ...gods has already planned what is going to happen ".But thinking of all those mass tragedy where people were dead in such a large amount made her think of something else as reason of all those happenings.

But again she was out of her mind or she was thinking beyond we all think by only taking one thing in account “keep emotions separate from facts. After all we never think before killing hundreds of goats in parties & celebrations. May be we all are like goats for our God. The same goat whose picture we portray as a sign of innocence and then at some other time slicing it just to make sure we feel the joy at tip our tongue. A complete life energy system of goat destroyed just for a momentarily joy of our tongues. May be god acts in the same way as we do for goats.

Now she was feeling uneasy of the complete thought and wished if she was wrong in that matter. Slowly she came out of all that thought and moved toward that toothpaste and toothbrush issue. what was left was a feeling of uneasiness and considering herself as radical for "talking impious of god ".Apologizing the god for complete thought process and fearing for her sins which might unplease the god.

May god make everybody happy was all she prayed ....after all hope is a very strong emotion .At least it make people believe that they will be happy in future.....

After all goats never thought that they will be killed......